Day #51 – I Am Me! No Apologies This Is Who I Am

There are so many things that I could write about.. & there are even more things that I iamraw.gifcould write & tell you about myself… but my self-written following verse will help to sum me up !

We all have to dare to be ourselves;
No matter how frightening the fear of being so is.
Let Me Tell You About Myself…

There was a time when I cared for how others thought & perceived me…
I cared so deeply about the thoughts and thinking’s of others;
That I would question myself in the reflection of my mirrored self.
I used to think that the perception that others had of me was somewhat questionable,
I questioned their perception of me
I questioned people
And I questioned  them loudly
& I wondered if they had ever taken the time
To actually  see me for all of whom I am…

I may at times be raw & blunt
But I have learned to stand tall in the beam of light that is me…
Shinning outwards my strengths and commitment to staying true to;
Myself built moral and obligations that I hold myself to
I have had to learn that those who walk with me, walk with the greatest of intentions…
& that they walk with me; not because they can but because they wish to.

I have also had to learn that those who judge me and question my authentic self
Are well in their own right to have their own made up option &
But more importantly I have had to learn
That their actions & opinions shouldn’t matter to me.

I am raw,
& I stand in true conviction of myself…
I am the truest form of myself that I can be
For myself & for all that I believe in
I am true and today I write these words with no hesitation and no apologies.

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Within the words of the song This Is Me
By Keala Settle, The Greatest Showman Ensemble
Reference – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wEJd2RyGm8Q

“This Is Me”

I am not a stranger to the dark
Hide away, they say
‘Cause we don’t want your broken parts
I’ve learned to be ashamed of all my scars
Run away, they say
No one’ll love you as you are

But I won’t let them break me down to dust
I know that there’s a place for us
For we are glorious

When the sharpest words wanna cut me down
I’m gonna send a flood, gonna drown them out
I am brave, I am bruised
I am who I’m meant to be, this is me
Look out ’cause here I come
And I’m marching on to the beat I drum
I’m not scared to be seen
I make no apologies, this is me

Oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh, oh, oh

Another round of bullets hits my skin
Well, fire away ’cause today, I won’t let the shame sink in
We are bursting through the barricades and
Reaching for the sun (we are warriors)
Yeah, that’s what we’ve become (yeah, that’s what we’ve become)

I won’t let them break me down to dust
I know that there’s a place for us
For we are glorious

When the sharpest words wanna cut me down
I’m gonna send a flood, gonna drown them out
I am brave, I am bruised
I am who I’m meant to be, this is me
Look out ’cause here I come
And I’m marching on to the beat I drum
I’m not scared to be seen
I make no apologies, this is me

Oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh, oh, oh
This is me

and I know that I deserve your love
(Oh-oh-oh-oh) ’cause there’s nothing I’m not worthy of
(Oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh, oh, oh)
When the sharpest words wanna cut me down
I’m gonna send a flood, gonna drown them out
This is brave, this is proof
This is who I’m meant to be, this is me

Look out ’cause here I come (look out ’cause here I come)
And I’m marching on to the beat I drum (marching on, marching, marching on)
I’m not scared to be seen
I make no apologies, this is me

When the sharpest words wanna cut me down
I’m gonna send a flood, gonna drown them out
I’m gonna send a flood
Gonna drown them out
Oh
This is me


My Interpretation Of “This Is Me”

I’m not a stranger to the verbal words spoken behind my turned back
I see the finger-pointing
& I feel the stabbing pains that dig me deep within my heart
Pushing me to my breaking pointing
Expecting me to run
Run as far as it takes where no one can see me
All because they say its fun
To pull away at my inner workings
To see how I tick and toc

They want to see me hurt
They want to feel my need
All so that they can say that they were the ones who saved me!

I walk alone in my own stained glass tears
Pushing forward with all that wills me
Through the barricades of people who hold me back
& onto the footpath that I have built for me
And when the darted words make my life unbearable
I choose to walk tall vowing that my tears will never fall.

Silent moments and a flood of tears
Away from watching eyes and cheers of laughter
Silence becomes my comforter
As my legs raise me to where I am ok again.

I am not scared to have to have an opinion
& I am not scared to make it known
& whilst I certainly do not walk without fear
I am comforted by my guiding morals and values
I make no apologies,
I welcome my strength and know that this is who is me.
And when their words
Try to bend and break my resolve
I put on my brave face
& walk proudly on.

I am me
I am unique
I am the best me that I can be.
No hesitations
No apologies
& certainly no damn sorry’s
For I am being who it is that I was meant to be.

Written By
Tanya Kelly


I Have in myself the everything that I hoped that I would find in others; I am & have index275-300x202.jpgtrust in myself… I am resilient & self-reliant…

I am full of self-confidence, and I have grown inner self-worth… my independence is my strength… highly reliable and unwavering to the lessons that others try to pass at me.

I am the honesty and the warrior that I seek in others… I am me and I am raw…

I will forever stand in true conviction of myself…
I am the truest form of myself that I can be
For myself & for all that I believe in
I am true and today I write these words with no hesitation and no apologies.

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Today’s blog post is my 100th time over; written testament to me.
Signed
Author. Tanya Kelly
365daysomethings.wordpress.com

1 thought on “Day #51 – I Am Me! No Apologies This Is Who I Am

  1. Beautiful. I love your gentle words of self-reflection and acceptance and love of who you are. So many people I have met do not love themselves because they have been coaxed into believing they need to change, somehow. Your words bring to mind a couple of old poems which I will share with you offline. Much love and respect, Tanya.

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